Myself

Many words explain certain people
But no words speak my character
Many people scream when they are in agony
But I keep my pain within me
My new white pages are always black
I feel dirty I want to scratch my skin
Until my blood starts to flow
I wish I can scream all the hidden words inside me
I want to release the fear within me
I want to run on my legs and go far away
To some other world
Until I can grow myself some wings
And fly somewhere…far away from dark, painful words
I want to swim in cold water with the fishes
Most of all
I want to feel compassion
Torture me no longer
Speak no words of endearments
For those endearments mean nothing to a girl who is deaf