Rise

I'm sick
For sure I am sick
I'm looking for a cure
But I fail to find it
My soul is in pain
I twist and turn at night
I haven’t slept in days
I have ate no food
I find no comfort
Can I please run away?
Go somewhere else…
So I can breathe some fresh air?
I've been looking for a certain ray of light
But in this darkness there is not light
I'm lying here
Half alive
Half dead
No matter my tries
I fail to rise
My tears are dry
My voice is gone
My body is cold
Who you would hold me?
No one
Has anyone thought of me during these weeks, months, and years?
I prefer not
I just want to fly away
Or go down the ocean
I want to find the true living self within me
The one who was once more than an emotional poet
Right now
I am an emotional poet with a broken soul