Once Upon a Time...

Once upon a time I lived
But what happened to me now?
I am no longer myself
I wonder why…
I seek new words to describe my morbid self
I seek new remedies to heal old wounds
I seek new words to submit on these white sheets of clean paper
But mostly
It's my heart that seeks
But I never seem to find the one thing I want
You!
I can't seem to find you
For at least feel the love that was once shared
I am looking for you between the pages of my life
Wishing to understand why you shut me out
Why am I alone now?
Why am I writing this?
I miss you so much
But I have to back away
So you can know what I really mean to you
The real question is
Can you see your days without me?
Can you live without me?
Am I the only one that you think of…?